Hallucinogenics

If I were to die in your arms,

It would be the sweet release from this dream.

Stability

Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? I’m not okay. Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay? Am I okay.

To Be, or Yet to Be

I’m feeling alone,
Come on, throw me a bone
This heavy drape
Please tell me this isn’t my fate

I just wanna touch you
Maybe even hold, too
But you flick me away
But I still wish for today

I just wanna run away
From the fray, today,
Instead crochet,
A key to my heart
Please don’t part

Of you, I still dream
Whilst you lie near
But I still fear
Looking into the mirror

Afraid of what I’ll see
What I am to be
Diseased and falling apart
At my minds own Bonaparte.

I am Death

I ask you am I good enough
You don’t answer, calling my bluff
I just need reassurance, validation
Don’t leave me lying here, mind masturbation

My mind collapsing, prolapsing, relapsing
Negative thoughts that seem to bring
The cloud that covers the light
Killing the flowers, bees, endless blight

The apocalypse of my mind
I wander around this wasteland, never to find
Peace, harmony and pure happiness
Growing from the earth, all the angriest

Fuck Me

Tonight tomorrow but today
This depression, my shade
Each time of day, the day parade
Now watch me slide into fade

Yesterdays shade has got me black
Today’s crave has brought me back
Tomorrows cave will give me slack
One can hope, but never crack

I can’t touch what isn’t there
Life’s tough and isn’t fair
I offer love but you never share
I keep on going, truth or dare.