Hallucinogenics

If I were to die in your arms,

It would be the sweet release from this dream.

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Blind

Forever, but never, my castration is clever, but I say whatever, we must sever my endeavor, to strangle whoever gave this answer.

But to keep alive, this prize, arrest my eyes, for those who cry over the spilt size of my thighs, and supply these guys with the skies to realize their disguise.

For not to kill this skill with chill, for my will shall scale this hill, and destroy the veil with this pill I take with thrill.

As I am cloud nein, with my fine canine, dining on wine and steak, devine! While my mind is sunshine, my body Frankenstein, dear Valentine you have a deadline, I must decline thine Einstein shrine, to design my maze vine and protect my mind from your confined resign.

To feed on bits, avoid your hits, but benefit on these tits, and told I need permits to show off my splits, and admit that my poems
Suc

To Be, or Yet to Be

I’m feeling alone,
Come on, throw me a bone
This heavy drape
Please tell me this isn’t my fate

I just wanna touch you
Maybe even hold, too
But you flick me away
But I still wish for today

I just wanna run away
From the fray, today,
Instead crochet,
A key to my heart
Please don’t part

Of you, I still dream
Whilst you lie near
But I still fear
Looking into the mirror

Afraid of what I’ll see
What I am to be
Diseased and falling apart
At my minds own Bonaparte.

I am Death

I ask you am I good enough
You don’t answer, calling my bluff
I just need reassurance, validation
Don’t leave me lying here, mind masturbation

My mind collapsing, prolapsing, relapsing
Negative thoughts that seem to bring
The cloud that covers the light
Killing the flowers, bees, endless blight

The apocalypse of my mind
I wander around this wasteland, never to find
Peace, harmony and pure happiness
Growing from the earth, all the angriest

Try, Try Again

You seem bothered by everything I do,
You cook dinner and i eat all the food,
I try to do the dishes, but never when you need me to,
I sit to console you but am still in the way.

This might all just be in my mind,
Would you like your eggs scrambled or fried?,
Fried is my brain whenever I try,
Trying is my failure, making me frayed.

Anxiety, depression, what else can I list?,
My plans for our life should be nothing but bliss,
I just wanna lay here and give you a kiss,
Yet here I jump and drift into the bay.

Fuck Me

Tonight tomorrow but today
This depression, my shade
Each time of day, the day parade
Now watch me slide into fade

Yesterdays shade has got me black
Today’s crave has brought me back
Tomorrows cave will give me slack
One can hope, but never crack

I can’t touch what isn’t there
Life’s tough and isn’t fair
I offer love but you never share
I keep on going, truth or dare.

Worthless

I’ve loved you since the day we first met
But you hurt me to my core nonetheless
Not directly, i know you would never do that
Now play this song in a somber b-flat

To know your past was okay with me
To know that nothing you’ve been through will ever be
But to know every guy you’ve been with, the number suprised me
Left me with my heart ever aching

Every time I touch, kiss, lick you
Has me think, it’s a place your men have been through.
Not a place I can go is really alone
To hold myself on the mightiest of thrones

Men from your past flooding my mind
But you my dear, ever so kind
Telling me not to think of such awful things
But many a men in mind before I can blink

I don’t want you feeling guilty or bad
But know that it’s hard for me to get over what you had
To know I might not be enough to compare
To think of the variety, should I even dare

Am I too fat, too nerdy, too tall?
Am I really the best you had out of them all?
To complement my size and my ability to please.
Am I really what you say with such simplicity?

How many eyes have you seen through
How many bodies caressed, putting forth a coup
How many invited to your bed
The same one I sleep on, oh dread

You tell me you had tinder with a fellow employee
Does he brag to his friends, does he always eye you?
Do You both relive the experience whenever he’s near you?
Who else in your daily life have you been so close to?

This is what tears me, right down to my core
To know these people you see often, I abhore
Thinking of you thinking of them, I can’t imagine
The shit you’ve experienced in the bedroom, what are my chances

It’s part of my nature to feel competitive with ego
I always wanted to be your only one, but will you let me go?
To know you can find someone so simply in life
When it took me months and many a strife

Feeling unworthy, can I even compare?
I know that you love me and really do care
But it won’t stop these feelings, this anger, this STOP
I want it to stop, my head, please guillotine, chop!

To end it all now would save me the trouble
But watch this stone skip, it was only a pebble
Watch something so small accomplish so much
I only wanted me to be the only one you touched

I lay here crying, in the dark in your arms
Sniffing and teary, far from your charm
Not wanting but also hoping for you to notice,
Me at my worst from gods given lotus

I see you and feel the love flood through
But clench what’s near me, with the thoughts that make me blue
Such anger I hate feeling from somewhere so dark
I don’t bring it up or share in fear of our part

I know I’ve said it’s forgotten, forgiven, what’s done
Your past life, already lived, not redemptive
Its so hard to do, I can’t move on from this point
Now to forget the world and let’s light up this joint

I love you but I’m hurting

Seen As

I am seen as a bent can, in the canned produce aisle of a market

A risk that I will ruin a well thought out meal,

through internally damaged goods, or the belief that adding it to the other delicately refined produce, it will taint the dish.

But seen as a chance at discount, if willing to choose the bent, not broken.

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